i have not idea

Ever have no idea how you feel? That is how I always am. I'm just confused. I don't know what to say or how to feel. Sometimes I just don't know who I am. People may say that they know who I am and understand me, but I don't believe that. How can someone understand me if I don't even understand me? I honestly have no clue what is going on around me. I do not know where to go from here. I do not know what to do with what live gives me. I do not feel like a complete person. Somethings missing. I am losing my grip on life. I use to be so confident, sure, knew where I was going and what I was doing. What happened is all I can ask. I just wish I knew who I was. The funny thing is I don't know what my favorite stuff is. You know when people ask you whats your favorite color, I really don't know I just make something up. I am lost in a crowd, standing alone, people are whizzing by going on with their lives. I have no where to go. I am just scared and alone. But I keep to myself.

&& shes scared

to get close to

A N Y O N E

because everyone

who said

"I'll be there"

left